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How am I supposed to say goodbye when his coat is hanging in my closet? When I pass his room every time I go to the Rainsworth mansion? When I have to hold back tears every time I see a bowl of candy? When I realize I would never be where I am today without him? How am I supposed to say goodbye when I carry the same scars on my heart that he did? When we shared physical scars as well? When I feel guilty if I laugh because I know he won't get that chance again? When I can't look Sharon, or Reim in the eye because I think of him? How am I supposed to say goodbye when I dream about him? When I can't forget the way his hand felt on the small

Why can't everything go back to being simple? Not that it ever was. I want Break to chase me through the halls again with me screaming at him. I want Elliot to vent to me about how much he hates Gil, whether I get annoyed at him or not. I want to take back that time I got upset at Uncle Oscar for braiding my hair like Jack's on my 25th birthday. I want to call Break Xerx-Nii-San just one more time, I want… I want to make sure he saw my face enough times that even when he's in heaven he won't forget what it looks like. In fact I'd give the world for one more candy being popped in my mouth followed by the comment to smile more. I should h